There’s a fear of expressing

My darkest parts

The parts that fester

And encase my heart. 

I don’t know when 

And I don’t know why

But there’s something that tells me 

It’s not fine to cry

To let you in 

On the secrets I’ve kept

For the very reason

That everyone’s left

A heart that hurts

Is a heart that’s avoided

In a world full of smiles

Where true pain gets you voided

From the giggles

The merriment

The fun-with-the-friends

And a heart fully exposed

Makes the merry-go-round end.