I notice sadness

Sadness at the people that I’ve hurt

Unintentionally

Sadness at the times I’ve quit too early

Or started something dumb

Thinking I was making the right decision

Sadness at all of the “what could have been”s

What if my entire life could be different from one of those choices? 

What if I already walked past the love of my life,

And was too scared to talk to her? 

What if one tiny decision could have shifted everything? 

The scariest part is

That I’ll never know.