For a lot of my life

I’ve scoffed at people taking selfies

For people putting on the nicest clothes

For the amount of effort people put into looking rich, looking spiritual, or looking perfectly manicured. 

Sheepling into the next big skin care craze. 

I’m not vain like them. No way no how. 

This week, I wondered if maybe

Just maybe

What I consciously called ‘lack of vanity’...

Putting no attention into what I’m wearing

Refusing to try to dress nice

etc

Was perhaps not as spiritual as I thought it was. 

If maybe it was just an external representation

Of not caring about myself.

If perhaps it is an perfect example

Of how I’ve treated myself internally. 

Not sure… But it hurts to look at. 

So maybe we are on the right track.