I know nothing about writing

So I feel ashamed

I notice worrying about the structure

And how its supposed to come out

“It’s supposed to be polished, “

“It should sound way smarter.”

“Nobody’s gonna care about this”

Bouncing around in my head like superballs from a determined child’s fingers

I wonder if my shame about writing 

Is simply reflecting

My conditionings around

How I’m supposed to communicate

Or interact with the world. 

If my shame about writing

Could also reflect my shame of communication in general

And the person I’m supposed to be. 

And if all the eggshells I’ve been walking on…

  To write the right thing - 

  To say it perfectly,

  Or punctuate it just right

…Have been optional all along.